Tim Turner

Today I was listening to a radio show. This particular show is essentially a pastor and a guest. Callers can talk to either of them and asked their questions on life, spirituality, morality, etc. and get biblical answers to said questions. I’ve come across this show many times and usually find the content thought provoking and very well founded. Today, though, I find a pair of calls that I simply can’t get past. The whole thing went a bit like this:

A woman called in and explained that she was very ill(sounded like she was feeling very weak) and had recently talked with another radio show host who apparently made a statement saying essentially that the woman’s condition was going to have happened no matter what since God can see the future. The woman then said that she was confused and just couldn’t understand that statement.  The two gentlemen replied with as good of an answer as could be expected in such an awkward situation. Obviously we can’t see the future, and they don’t have all of the information, but they were able to encourage the woman. They also mentioned some verses to read, which she then said that she could not read due to the illness afflicting her. She mentioned that she had bought some sermon dvds for her unsaved family members since she was worried about them. Finally the radio hosts encouraged her to continue listening and then prayed for her.

The next caller was a younger sounding woman who was asking about some tips on starting a street ministry. Apparently that was a hot topic for the guest speaker, and so he was more than happy to give some pointers to the young lady. Also he asked the host to send her a few sets of material(devotionals, tracks, etc.). They were obviously very excited to help her, and encourage her greatly in her future ministry.

On the surface there wasn’t much wrong with what I’d heard. Sounded just like anything else I’d expect on a talk show. The thing that keeps bugging me though is the first woman that called. This woman was obviously having problems. Called in looking for answers, and got them as far as I think possible. No one even thought(as far as I’m aware) to ask that woman if they could help. If we can hand out ministry materials for free, why can’t we send out a free audiobook version of the bible for a woman who can no longer read? I understand absolutely, that none of us is capable of being all things for all people. I understand it was not the nature of this particular show. I also understand its possible someone from the show did just the thing I’m saying. The whole encounter, though, left me with a bad taste in my mouth.

Are we so concerned with getting in new believers, that we never bother to help the people we already have? Has the Church degraded down to the point that our only concern is to get people to sign the dotted line, but not lift a finger to give comfort for those who are hurting?

“Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute. Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and the needy” - Proverbs 31:8-9

We, as believers, are to act as Christ did on earth. Christ was there for the needy, there for the hurting, and there for those who had fallen. Its feels as though somewhere along the way we have become so busy we don’t have time to actually help anyone. Would it really hurt to skip that morning latte and use the money to buy lunch for a friend who just lost their job? Can we be bothered to listen to that neighbor who has hit rock bottom and doesn’t know if there is any hope left?

Our faith is not a machine that gets people in the door and then leaves them out to dry. Christ told us in the great commission to:

¹⁹ Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. ²⁰ Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” -Matthew 28:19-20

Often times we only lo0k to verse 19 when referring to the great commission, but what about verse 20? It says to teach the new disciples. Teach people can be done a lot of different ways, but one way that is certain to teach the gospel is by word and to follow it with action.

God didn’t just chose to share His love long enough to save us. He loves us so much that He continues to be a part of our lives. He listens to us, helps us, and teaches us. When we are hurting He is there. From Him all hope and love come. Yet, we often times refuse to share the love God has given us. We have settled for the easy way out. God gives us so much love that it should overflow from us into others, but we commonly treat it like a precious metal and want to keep it all to ourselves. We should share that love with everyone we come into contact with. Allow it to pour out onto those in need, and to use it to provide who cannot provide for themselves.

At the end of the day the reason all of this has been bothering me so much is because I see myself lacking. Its so easy to help people when its convenient or when they are easy to help. Its completely different when that person is hard to love. Its great to give myself a pat on the back when I do something nice, but doing nice things and helping are completely different things. All the nice things in the world won’t help someone if they do not actually provide for their needs.

¹⁴Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. ¹⁵Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. ¹⁶Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.^[c] Do not be conceited.

¹⁷Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. ¹⁸If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. ¹⁹Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”says the Lord. ²⁰On the contrary:
“If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.” ²¹Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. -Romans 12:14-21

Often times when we don’t like someone or find them undesirable we seem to forget about their humanity. That person has a story. They have hurts, tastes, and loves…just like we do. Rather than ignoring or talking bad about a person, what would happen if we swallowed our pride and helped them in their times of need? We would acknowledge their humanity, and we would affirm God’s love in our lives.

I ask of myself, and of others that next time you see someone whether you like them or not if they have a need fulfill it. Sometimes its a simple as kind words. Sometimes kind words fall short, and we actually have to do something. Be ready for action. When someone cries give them a shoulder. When someone needs home give them a bed. When someone punches you in the face give them a hug. For all you know that may be the most love anyone has ever showed them.

24 Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart,
All you who hope in the LORD. (Psalms 31:24)

24 For we were saved in this hope, but hope that is seen is not hope; for why does one still hope for what he sees? (Romans 8:24)

13 No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it. (1 Corinthians 10:13)

Coincidence isn’t something I put much faith in. So when a lot of the same thing seem to pop up in life I think its wise to considering paying closer attention. For a while now I’ve been noticing one thing in particular keep showing up in my life. A deep sense of impending suffering, and a deeper hope I should place in God to get me through it.

I’d feel a little arrogant thinking the coming storm was meant for me alone, so I have no doubt that its going to have an effect on others, but its also obvious to me now that God has something for me to learn. Life may get really hard all of the sudden. In this country in particular many of us are not used to life being very hard. So, what then do we do when life throws us to our knees till they’re bloody and torn? How do you believe when you can’t see five minutes ahead, much less see God? I heard a fantastic answer today in a song by Building 429(Lyrics)(Hear it)

The story behind the song is simple, but powerful. The first verse is about an event in which Jason Roy met a woman in an autograph line that had lost her child, and told them the story of how the child was killed by her ex-husband. The story weighed heavily on him, and he started to write the song as a cry, and as a question to God. The second verse is about his own experience as a child with his father leaving, and the pain caused by the event. The thing is, though, the answer to the question is found in the chorus:

But I believe always always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone
God knows our pain and His promise remains
He will be with you always

God keeps His promises always. In Hebrews 13:5 it says we will not be left or forsaken. Considering we have no right to demand anything of God, its a pretty huge deal when the Creator of the universe tells you that He will always be there, no matter what. The thing I think we all forget about our life with Christ is that no where does the bible say Christianity includes an easy button. No where do we see our lives becoming magically perfect and never will another hardship fall on us.

The painting in the picture is a birthday present given to me by my amazing friend Lacey. On it is a quote that never ceases to ring a chord with me. The quote is from The Lion The Witch and The Wardrobe by C. S. Lewis and happens in a conversation between the children and the beavers. Mr. Beaver is telling the kids about Aslan the lion and they ask if he is “quite safe.” I think this is a perfect view of Christ. There is nothing safe about Christ, but Christ is good. Better than anything else in the world.

As a result of our walk with Christ we may find that we have to sacrifice much more then we are comfortable with, but He is good. The world will hate us for it, but He is good. Faith may cost us everything, but He is good.

No matter what the cost is for us, however, God fulfills His promises. We can have hope that even when we are beaten and bloodied God is with us, always.

Its no secret, I get stressed out too easily, and I don’t handle it well. Like a snowball rolling down a hill the next thing I know I have an avalanche of anxiety filling every moment of my day. As of this week it would appear that I’ve run out of fake smiles, so I guess I’m in a bind. Its not something I’m particularly proud of, but at the same time what do you do when you’ve lived life with so much on your shoulders that you are afraid to put it down? Sometimes freedom is so free its terrifying.

Tonight I was driving home, and happened to turn on the radio to hear “In My Arms” by Plumb. This song in particular was written by the lead singer about her child, however it seemed to strike a different cord for me. The chorus in particular is what stuck with me. It seems I’ve gotten so caught up in whats happening that I forgot this:

Knowing clouds will raise up
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

Life isn’t suddenly perfect, but its nice when God puts a reminder in your day to remember to look up. I forgot why I keep hope, when there should be none. Even though none of the things on my mind have gone away I know I will make it through. When life is raging at every corner of your being, you’ll be safe in His arms.

After I heard that song, I rolled down the windows, and drove home with a smile on my face.

Definition Administration - 6
Definition Discernment - 16
Definition Evangelism - 11
Definition Exhortation - 14
Definition Faith - 7
Definition Giving - 2
Definition Ministering - 16
Definition Knowledge - 14
Definition Mercy - 18
Definition Pastor - 17
Definition Teaching - 15
Definition Wisdom - 17

I think God is rather hilarious at times. That is the 2nd spiritual gifts test I’ve taken in two days, and both times they came out basically the same. Mercy, Teching, Wisdom–from everything I can tell those are the skills God gave me to use. So, now I have to ask myself…what do I do with it? For quite a while now I’ve been ignoring God, basically as much as possible. I knew when I decided to enter into the ministry that while God does let some people sit back and be content with their simple life, I was never intended to be one. It would be so nice to relax and live life as an average joe, but my soul keeps stirring.  Today I realized why I can’t settle. Its simple realy, its the desire to create.

God, being the Creator, made all of us in His image. I think a lot of times we turn things around, and make our characteristics His. The problem with that thinking is that we are flawed, He is not. One thing mankind must do, no matter how much we may resist it, is to create. We must make something, its built into all of us. The most common form is for us to create art or music. Its not limited to that, however, we can create love, peace, and joy as well. One thing I really and truly love to do, is to create something that inspires someone. A lot of times that puts me into the roll of untrained-struggling-to-be-creative graphic designer. The thing is though, it makes me incredibly happy, regardless of how unsatisfied I am with my own creativity. I feel so great about it, because something inside of me knows that I simply have to create something. Look at humanity’s past. You can learn quite a lot about a culture simply from the art they create. Look at how inspiring architecture has been.  The universe itself is a mighty piece of art. Science is necessary, because we feel a need to understand the infinite potential of the world God created for us. Nothing about this is really new, though, but it got me thinking about my own creations today.

What if art is not what God intended for me, but to bring about peace in a person’s heart? Its so easy to turn to art as the best way to show our creative desires. Could is be just as creative to listen to a person and give them wisdom? Is creating peace in a heart of chaos a way to make art? Is it possible that when you teach someone a new way to look at God you are creating love? What about listening to another persons cry for help, is that just as creative as the man with a paintbrush? Earlier today I might have said no, but I am certain these things are just as creative. I now realize that the joy I feel when creating art is only a small part of what God actually intends for me to do. While I’m still not certain what I should be doing, I know that I shouldn’t settle for what kind of logos or shirts I can make. What I am to create will likely not be something that can be seen, but something thats inside the hearts of people.

So, next time you look at a painting and have a real appreciation for the talent that God has blessed that person with, will you also look at the works of your own hands, your mouth, or your eyes and see the creativity that comes from them as well?

We’re back, and unfortunately once again I feel like I took a vacation that felt nothing like a vacation. Wicked was absolutely amazing, and we had fun, but the beds at the hotel were so hard and uncomfortable that I had a really hard time sleeping, so for four days I’ve slept really bad. I’d definitely recommend Wicked to anyone, the show was a blast, and was far more then I had even expected. I just love the theme of the whole show. While it was focuses on the relationship between the wicked witch and the people around her the show had a lot of political undertones. The whole conflict comes about as a result of the wizard oppressing the rights of the animals(who in oz can talk and think like people). In the end she is label as “wicked” through propaganda and lies all as a result of her wanted to stand up for what she believed in. I really like the way they tied the story together with the original wizard of oz story, it just gave a nice fresh perspective on the whole thing.

The one nice really nice thing about being gone though was I had the chance to 1. catch up on my reading, and 2. think. I read a book called Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire by Jim Cymbala. The thing I love about books like this is to see what its like for someone to rise up to the challenges that harsh spiritual environments present and to overcome them. The whole book really touched me, but I think the most important thing to see in the book was to truly understand the importance of prayer. Sure, we all know prayer is a good thing, but prayer is probably one of the most overlooked things in our daily lives. Even a lot of prayer that is done has a tendency to be forced, or is simply done because its the right thing to do, not because there is a heart of prayer. I look at my own life and must say I’m disgusted at my own prayer. I could come up with a lot of nice flowery, tear-jerking prayers, but in the end I know my heart simply isn’t there. Now that I’ve more openly acknowledged my problem I feel I’m a good step closer to correcting the problem, but I also understand I have a long way to go. When a heart not only prays, but is driven to pray amazing things will follow in the wake.

Ovie and I had a great conversation last night. Even though I really enjoy my time alone to ponder things, its really nice to have people in my life who I can bounce my ideas off of, and its even more enjoyable to find out I’m not the only one who is feeling these things. Spiritually I’m just down right apathetic. I can make excuses why that happened but in the end it doesn’t matter, what matters is that has to change, and I understand now the only way I’m going to change that fact is to set myself some goals. A huge problem with myself, and the entire twenty-something age group is a huge lack of goals. Sure I want to be close to God, and I want to have a house and a nice car, those are goals right? Indeed they are, however I realize now I have no goals to get me to those places. We can look towards the future all we want, but at the end of the day we live here and now, and we have to learn to get moving. I’m starting to learn to take smaller steps. Have John read by the end of this month, pray twice a day, etc. I know this isn’t some kind of cureall for my spirituall life, but I feel like it’ll get me back in the movement, the first few steps are always the hardest. In the end I understand that I can no longer sit still, I have things to do and a world to change.

I think the most disturbing thing about feeling so apathetic is my deep fear that I’ll become cold and lose compassion. Two instances haunt me, and I simply cannot get them out of my mind. The first happened while we were in Orlando. We stopped by wal-greens to get something for Kat since she wasn’t feeling all that great at the time. As we walked about I was in the back, and I walked past a man sitting on the sidewalk. He mumbled something and I stop and turned to him, and said “what was that?.”
He calmly replied,” do you have any change?” I told him I was sorry I did not(which was true, I don’t keep cash on me), and then walked to the car. It wasn’t until we got back on the road that the alarm went off in my head. What was I thinking? I had $20 on my debit card, would it of really been so hard to ask the man what he needed? The guy was dirty, with a bike and a backpack so all I can do is assume he was homeless. When was the last time he ate? Would it of hurt to lend a helping hand out to another human being? I didn’t, and unfortunately this hasn’t been the only time such a thing has happened. A month or so ago I was in the store and happened to notice a group of “scene” looking kids. Its not abnormal to see this kind of group in our store, but what made this one stand out was a girl wearing a tanktop who had a large birthmark on her back, similar to the one my brother was born with. I went about my merry business and continued to help customers as per normal. At the end of my shift I got in the car and started to head home. As I came up to the intersection to turn onto 181S I happened to look to my right, and there in the grass sat the girl I had seen in the store. She was crying her eyes out sitting alone with no other cars around. The poor girl looked absolutely miserable. Had she gotten into an argument with someone and been left behind? Did she need a ride home, or someone to talk to? I don’t know, because I kept driving.

When I look back on those events it doesn’t surprise me that the world has such a negative view of Christians. When people are in need, we keep walking. That is what breaks my heart. To know that people are hurting and we, the ones who are here to help, just don’t give a damn. Whats so sickening is that when I look in the mirror I know I am one of those people.

Now its time to stand up, and I hope that everyone else will join me on a path to a greater impact on the community around us.